Perspective...sometimes people need to put things into perspective to allow you to move forward or to enable you to let things go. In dealing with the premature birth of Ciaran and Shay, we are constantly questioning the impact that day to day situations will have today, tomorrow, next week, next year, ten years from now, etc. Did the rounds today, and both boys remain stable. Cris and I always have a number of questions, and they most often than not, refer to Ciaran as he has run into more difficulties at this point in time. Today on rounds, I questioned a number of indicators that we are tracking that resulted from Ciaran's episode last Saturday. This week the Chief of the NICU is working with Ciaran (- he too was there last Saturday when Ciaran starting experiencing difficulties. Upon seeing my state in the waiting room last week, he joined the Team working on Ciaran and assisted in stabalizing him at the time). Today when we questioned his progress - which does not involve significant improvements, however, does involve the fact that he remains steady day to day - the Doctor poignantly reminded me that Ciaran is one week older and this fact is extremely significant. His response reminded me of the fact that each day is a gift and that whatever the outcomes/repercussions may be from day to day interventions, Cris and I can not only handle them but more importantly, we can and will celebrate them which is far more productive.
That being said, I will be honest in saying that my background in Special Education and Speech and Language is both a blessing and a curse. It is a huge blessing in that I am informed - I know what questions to ask and I recognize the importance of tracking Ciaran's and Shay's development and milestones. Paradoxically, it is a curse because again I am informed - in being informed, I remain on edge and filled with worry. Shay's nurse reinforced to me today that the only thing that we can worry about are those things that we can control - and many of the things that we have already experienced early on in our journey are things that we cannot control. For those of you who know me well, I am a strong advocate of the belief that everything happens for a reason - at this point in time, Cris and I need to stand by and embrace this belief and accept that our situation is not a test - instead it is a life circumstance that will only develop our sense of knowledge, empathy, compassion and faith....we have two beautiful baby boys...we are truly blessed and we have to much to look forward to!
So, enough of me rambling - Ciaran weighed in today at 1130 grams (a gain of 40 grams) which is quite a bit. He is retaining water and is not having consistent bowel movements which the staff are currently working on rectifying. He was stable all day yesterday and had a good night last night. He has a few big tests later in the week - we are hopeful that the news will be good as he is looking better everyday. Yesterday, he had a really good day.
Shay weighed in at 1072 grams. He is looking really good and is making nice progress. He is surprising fair which you will see when Cris posts the pictures in the next hour or two (Cris - that is a hint :)
That is about it for now. Hope all is well on your end...and thanks for your continued interest and support!
cris, liza, ciaran and shay
ps good on ya auntie phyllis for figuring out how to send a comment - very impressed!